Dear diary~

Uuughh!
It’s just killing me on the inside.

Diary: Whats wrong My lady?

*Throws a table… and some women’s weave*
Gaaahhhhhh!!!!!

Okay.. okay *Takes a deep breath and exhales*

Diary: Glad to see your calm now my lady,
what seems to be troubling you?

*Sips tea* Well, there’s this guy who I’ve had feelings for, for well..
YEARS.
And well I was not sure if he felt the same so I never told him – n –
about a year ago when I finally built up the courage
to tell him,
I then find out he’s taken by someone else he’s known for some time
*Heart shatters*

Now then, some sick part of my mind I’ve been hoping they would
break up ever since > u >

Buuuuut when I checked back…
they are still together xnx
And..
I felt my heart drop,
and even felt it myself die inside.

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Diary: Perhaps do this to her my lady.

o.o In some deranged part of my mind maybe > u > Blah.
Sadly I do not have magical powers to let me come over
the internet u.u

And yet I thought you were the sane one O.o

Diary: Im not understanding how you thought that my lady.

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Well, i’ll continue to fake my happiness
just for him ❤
And keep telling myself
“As long as he’s happy..”

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“Why can’t it be perfect
This love’s not even real
Why don’t I cry for you
Love was dead from the start

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I don’t want you
I don’t need you
I’ll forget you

It doesn’t matter

I’ll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect
I love you
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No, this is all wrong
Why aren’t you gone
I know you’re not that strong
Don’t listen to me
We’ll always be so perfectly

Happy

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The lies you succumb to
Blissfully unaware
I don’t know how you can’t
See through my facade

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I don’t want you
I don’t need you
I’ll forget you

It doesn’t matter

I’ll play along
Writing our song
We are perfect

I love you
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No, this is all wrong
Why aren’t you gone
I know you’re not that strong
Don’t listen to me

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We’ll always be so perfectly

Happy

And maybe one day I’ll
Get to see your smile
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In the arms of someone
who loves you like I do..
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No, this is all wrong
Why aren’t you gone
I know you’re not that strong
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Don’t listen to me
We’ll always be so perfectly

Happy…”

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2 thoughts on “Dear diary~”

  1. Omg I almost started crying my eyes were beginning to fill with tears…
    I’m sorry that happened dear… must be so painful knowing that the guy you love is with someone else… you must have been so sad while making this…

    • I was, I was crying so much~ I felt like my heart had been broken even though we weren’t even a couple~ it was so painful to see he’s with someone else *Soft sigh* Even so I think he still is with her </3 Although I have long moved on since I last made this diary entry, I have someone else who has caught my deepest attention whom I already know has feelings for me too ~ Although the thought of the guy I loved who I can never have still lingers that sometimes I find myself hoping that I will find out that him and his gf have broken up and that he will suddenly come and claim my heart u.u //Oh how it's nice to dream, now if they only came true~ Well for him it did :T but it left me with a broken '</3'

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